"Slowly realizing that one is walking around in a state of perpetual fear/excitement/oh-sweet-baby-jesusness is the cost of following one's dreams."

I didn't write it but I wish that I did.  I could have if my ADHD would have let me think for just 2 minutes longer...squirrel!

That being said, this quote sums up many of my thoughts and feelings these days.  About various things, too, not just pertaining to my business.  It just about sums up my life.  Things are always changing around our house.  Sometimes they come in fast swoops, where you just don't know what hit you.  Sometimes they are brought on slowly and before you know it, life is not what it used to be.  It's all good, though.  This is what it's all about.  Rolling with the tides and paddling faster when you need and sitting back to relax and soak up the sunshine when you can is what makes the ride manageable and enjoyable.  The simple fact about all of this, the meaning behind this brilliant quote, is that you are supposed to feel this way.  This state of being is a good thing!  This is so comforting to me. 

It's obvious to understand why this thought is fitting for my work.   (Well, for me it's obvious.)  It's tough to be creative under pressure and really tough to work in a field where there is always something new to learn and someone else who knows way more than you!  I second guess myself all of the time.  I get excited then nervous then excited all over again.  But, I love that!  How cool is it to have so many opportunites to get better at your work?  That's cool to me!  How rewarding to get an end result that you can be proud of when you questioned yourself as to if you even had it in ya to pull it off?!   I freakin' love that! That is what keeps me coming back for more! 

This quote is also very fitting for me on a personal note.  (Not that my work isn't personal, because believe me, it is!)  I come from a very large family.  My husband and I have created a very large family.  This is our dream.  It is what we have always wanted.  We love the "rollercoaster", as Gil's grandmother in Parenthood so brilliantly described the thrill of parenthood.  Life with a big family has it's ups and downs, twists and turns. It can change on a dime.  You are constantly putting yourself out there, in a state of perpetual fear/excitement/oh-sweet-baby-jesusness, with your family members.  Giving yourself and sometimes taking more than you give.  But, I am lucky.  In my family, the cycle goes around and around.  We all take turns giving and taking.  It cycles around and we love each other for just that.  

My family has many challenges coming.  It's true.  We also have many, many good times to have!  I am here for the ride and hanging on tight!